Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Twenty?!


On December 20, 1989, a woman brought life to the most awesomest and cutest baby in the world. It has been two decades since then, and lets say she has not lost her touch. If I did, I would also be posting a picture of how young she still looks after so long. Same thing goes to my dad, who simply has a gray mustache and a bit of a bald spot. And he still looks good.
Well I honestly don't feel at all like a twenty year old, maybe it takes some getting used to or something. I honestly would always be the adult of the group, so nothing really has changed. The only thing that has is me and no longer being a teen. Guess I gotta kiss those years goodbye and get ready for more fun, if I can muster myself to have it. By this time around I really am just looking for a wonderful vacation with my family, and Christmas cheer to spread through our hearts.
But yeah, twenty? Maybe a few more weeks and I'll get into it. Good thing many still think of me as a 16 year old. :)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Bon Appetite!



I just finished watching the movie Julie and Julia, which I must admit was a movie that I was looking forward to watching, because I think Amy Adams is simply magnifique and Meryl Streep is never disappointing. But my most interest in this was the food.

I know that I am a little bit of an over eater, and I do enjoy food as much as the next person in line for a double fudge cake. But in all secrecy, I have always wanted to try and actually do a recipe from a cook book. Normally, all we ever do is simply follow a regimen of simple cooking so that we don't have to worry about cook books. We improvise as mom makes Chilaquiles, Enchiladas, and even a mixture of Fettucini Alfredo with long strands of Spaghetti instead of Angel Hair pasta.

I guess it is to keep things interesting and to not require anything to do with books. Nothing can be measured in life, and sometimes it is not directed properly. But I bet it tastes just as scrumptious.

All in all, this movie made me hunger for more, and gave me the inspiration to want to further pursue my passion for writing, be that of continuing on with my blog, or actually seek some editor to publish me. I just need the right ingredients and establish the goal for myself.

Thanks Julie Powell!! :)

Monday, December 14, 2009

Pretty Day

Well it is officially the first day of my holiday vacation. And today is a very pretty day to be out and about, cleaning outside or just being outside to soak in some rays. So why is it that I am just sitting down watching tv?

I find myself slowly and sluggishly reaching for my running shoes as well. Which wouldn't be such a bad idea fo such a sunny day. I am just a lazy lady at heart I guess.

But that's all gonna stop... Someday. ;)



Monday, December 07, 2009

LuckiTheresAFamilyGuy




I love family guy. It is one of the dark comedy shows of our generation. It may be tasteless with all that goes on in society, but it leaves much to the fun and non-interesting.
One episode that sticks to me the most however is the episode in which Peter Griffin gets a prostate exam. It was the episode my dad laughed, like really hard. No other time than this did I see him laugh as much as he did this time. It was just the first five minutes of the episode and that was more than enough to have me laugh as well.
The Kermit the frog bit didn't hurt much either. :)

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

wintertime.....

i love the cold... everything to do with it makes me all fuzzy inside. I can't really explain why that is though...
Hmmmmm.... i suppose because it reaches close to my time to shine, so to speak. And because one can never have one too many blankets. Plus the holidays just puts me in good cheer. I love christmas and anything to do with December also puts me in high spirits because for one, its vacation. Vacation is like a short sacred escape from everything to do with brain power. Second, the season's happy cheer, where families come together and spend the holidays. I know I mentioned all this before, but thats to further emphasize my point, that Holidays are rad! :)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Gobble Gobble

I love turkey day. It is the one day where everyone gets together to give thanks and pig out. But it is only good for the food really. Nobody really gives thanks any longer. Which is a real shame. Because I am thankful for many reasons.

1. I am thankful for my family who have given me life onto this earth and has taught me valuable life experiences that I will pass on to my children.
2. I am thankful for my life to which God has enlightened me to be all that I can be and to make the most of it. You only live once you know?
3. I am thankful for friends because without them I would never know what outside love is and how to make a person laugh for certain periods of time.
4. I am thankful for the love that many people have shown me, whether good or bad, it has still taught me something.
5. I am thankful for everything I have going for me, and thank the Heavens that it will only be good and encouraging times from here on out.

I can't really think of much else that I am thankful for, but I am thankful for that too, because I might not have you on the tip of my head, but you are buried treasure, hidden safely within my mind, and nurturing to my soul. Hope there are many of you that can understand that one should be thankful for more than just wholesome food that is delicious. It should also be that you are with family that you love, with laughter and arguing, but you still have them here, so kiss and make up. :)

Happy Turkey Day and Be Thankful! :}

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Lean on Me




Glee was awesome last night. And it made me want to cry at the same time.

For those that aren't with it I'll just cap up today's episode: pregnant chik's dad found out that she was pregnant and kicked her out. And something inside me stirred...

What if I went through the same thing? Would my daddy hold me and tell me everything will be alright or will he abandon me like her dad did?

It just led me to think I am glad no cross roads have thrown me there, and hopefully it won't ever. Only time will tell...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

They don't dance?!?

Just found out today that Seventh Day Adventists don't dance. I also learned that they don't wear jewelry, can't eat certain spices, must dress appropiately and certainly don't drink alcohol or do drugs.

I can understand the drinking and the drugs, but no dancing or wearing jewelry will be the end of me. Lol I am not trying to bash on anyone. Whatever religion that anyone is is fine with me. I just thought it was interesting to show that originality and difference in cultures can also be expressed in religions as well.

Pastor Sam explained it that the reason they don't dance or wear jewelry is to be different from others. Well since dancing comes from just about any culture, it's explainable. But to never be able to dance or to never be able to wear jewelry must certainly be a challenge for some. I feel naked everytime I forget to wear earrings. Guess to each their own.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

*rumblegrumble*

I'm just laying down on my bed because according to my health service nurse, I need all the rest I can get.

I kinda wanna get up though and get some breakfast in my tummy. It's been growling since ten or something.

But I am feeling soo much better that I am considering of starting work today! Going to La Granada Elementary School and seeing my kiddies is enough to keep me going. It was enough for me yesterday too but I don't want to get anyone else sick. These sniffles and coughs are my own burden to bear. :-)

Grilled cheese sandwich here I come! :-d

Monday, October 26, 2009

Midterms...

Ugh the time where I have to stay up late for study sessions and try to cram so much into my head until I feel like I can explode! I swear they expect us to know so much and yet in so little time to do it!

The only good thing about this week is no English class, I start work tomorrow with my lil kiddies, and I just need to worry about passing biology. Can you say headaches?

I just want to get this over with because sickness and midterms are not really what I would call as fun. I would like to see someone tell me that is fun, so I can convince them otherwise... Or just punch them in the face. Whichever comes to my head first.

And with halloween just around the corner I am hoping to get all better! Parties, laughter, and more good times. :)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Lost and Found




Things, people included, can disappear out of your life within the blink of an eye. I should know... I have seen it many times with friends and with artifacts (like my favorite socks, my Esmerelda watch I got when I passed the third grade, a pair to another pair of shoes). But when something that you have deemed a lost cause comes back to you, like it has with me, it gets me all hopeful and cheery for some weird reason.

Like my Winnie the Pooh keychain. I lost his cute little bucket and he has been naked for at least a good week or 2. And just a couple seconds ago as I was locking up my car and ready to go to class his little blue plastic bucket stood out like a sore thumb against the midnight blacktop. I felt as though it was waiting there all along, and was just waiting for me to save it from further tire marks and people stepping on it.

It gave me a sense of happyness... Like it was something that was bound to me and no matter how lost it would get it would find it's way back to me one way or another.

Makes me stay hopeful that those I have lost touch with will slowly intertwine their threads back with me. After all, no matter what has happened we are still combined one way or another.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

**sniff*sniff*cough**


Ugh sickness. It is never a good time for me to be sick like this. Especially since I have homework and not to mention glee/enchilada cooking tonight alongside with horrible kareoking and much more fun times with ppl.

And my school are like vultures when a student is sick. They will lock you up in quarantine like the movie Quarantine. I don't have rabies or something, just a little sore throat.

And i've got all the essentials: tissues, warm blankets, and pills pills pills. Let's hope it works :-/

Ps: while I was googling for a pic to show sickness every other one that popped up was either a pregnant woman or a skull. Weird huh?

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Conflictions




Ugh! It's just not fair! Just when I find a new job I have to consider turning it down! And the reason that I say it isn't fair is because I love working with children, but my heart is where elementary kids are at! I just love their cute innocent faces. And the middle school children are well not so innocent. I'm not sayin that they are bad kids, they sure look like a good bunch. I just don't feel the connection that I would feel whenever I worked with the elementary school kids. I guess innocence just comes easier to me...
The point for this blog: I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place :-/. I'll just see where this goes.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Theblahblahstudyoflifeblahto...




I just passed all morning in Biology only to have everything go in one ear and out the other. Basically I just need a good nights sleep. And flu season flying around is not helping me since I easily succumb to sickness. :-/
The only thing that kept me awake was Rosie passing notes about food to me. I sure am hungry!!! :)

Sunday, October 18, 2009

日本語

These are the only letters phrasing through my head rite now. I have a test tomorrow for Japanese. And instead of doing other sets of homework I'm just locked up in my room with katakana in one hand and hiragana in the other hand. Not that I'm complaining I love Japanese! Can't wait to go back to Little Tokyo in downtown LA! I feel as though I'm one step away from where I am gonna go one day! :)

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Labor Time




My biology lab has to be the most demanding class that I have ever written for this quarter of school. Microscopes and test tubes and beakers o my! And the funny thing about it is that for this class you have to know what you are writing about! And yet I still wing it. Oh the curse of being a good b.s.er. Apparently these skills take even more skill to take a calm step toward fluffing the paragraphs.


And on a quick side note: I got this app for on-the-go blogging. Get ready for many more posts!! :)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Tardy!




I was hoping of posting this on monday afternoon, but japanese and fun times got in the way. Such is the pathetic excuse of the procrastinator. Well on ward to my blog!
Its about what i should be majoring in because i do this way too frequently! Babysitting...
i love it! Especially this weekend! My nephew was everything a baby should be and more. He never once cried for mommy and slept by my side (in odd angles i should add). I felt like a mommy myself from time to time.
And speaking of single mothers i honestly do not know how they do it. How a mother can be taking care of her child, maintaining a clean home, as well as taking on a job to support her child. Power to the women out there that have to go through this everyday! I feel as though women have the ability to do this, but it is better to have someone by your side to go through it. It takes off some of the much applied stress that goes on in their lives I bet. Well to conclude my very busy weekend, something tells me that my sister aint doing this anytime soon, nor do i think does nemo... shame im gonna miss that little booger. =)

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Almost there...

October!!! Wow! Halloween! I would have never thought that the day would come so soon! The only way i see it as is taking it one day at a time. Only two more months and then we hit December. What's going on in December? O just a couple of things:

MY BIRTHDAY! 20 YRS Young! Bye Bye Teen years!
Winter Vacation
Mexico!
Christmas
New Family Members :)
My Friend is having a baby!
End of ENGLISH 113!
Party party party! lol

But thats about it. Nothing much but December is the month that i ALWAYS look forward to, not just becasue its my birthday, but also because its the end of an old year and the beginning of a new. A new time to begin and see the flowers bloom, the new years resolutions, and breaking them like i always do. :P
Trust me when i say, focusing your life on a certain time makes everything else go away much faster, which is something i have to learn to NOT do! lol

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

KUWAAIII!!!!!!!



This super-cute-adorable-but-possibly-disease-infected-animal-or-should-i-say-reptile was in our house!!! While I was watching House! O the coincidence!
But in all seriousness (or as serious as i can get which isnt alot), this little critter was in our hallway and my little brother instead of being the big man and defending the woman from the beast jumps up and says theres a freaking lizard in the house. Guess who had to pick it up?! I'll give you a hint: it was me. Oop too much of a hint i see. =)
well i honestly love animals, any kind really. it can be an alligator or a flesh eating shark and i will still think its adorable but definately keep my distance. I am what you would call an animal lover, and i have no fears of any in particular. its like you have to give them all chances. Some animal can be one of the most cutest things ever and it can be the meanest while the ugly duckling is the one that is loveable and ready to share its love. I mean come on! They are prolly harmless! Maybe not something that can bite though. I'll be sure to think twice before i grab a snake or something thats poisonous. :P

And summer heat is leaving California by the looks of it. I mean i wear sweaters to school now!!! :)

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Green Stuff!

There are times when i wish i could be like this guy. The biggest grin on the planet as he holds 50s and 20s. I sa y this because i found out that i have to buy yet another book. Can you say omg? I sure can, especially when its 100 dollars. Why dont they just burn the hole in my pocket now!! why wait!? Man i need a job. Either that or invest in a money tree. Does anyone know any good ones around?

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Double Blogging!!!

well it was the first day of school yesterday and i was so excited. Kinda like man i took speed and now i cant stop running around in circles!!! Well I found my classes, made a few new friends, and reconnected to a bunch of old friends. I have a feeling though that my toughest one will be Bio, ill have fun both in SDA beliefs and Japanese and i know that I am going to excel in english! Its my major, why shouldnt I?! =)
What i would really like to say about my Japanese Class is this: AWESOMENESS!!! I am beyond excited to have started how to write and begin pronunciation! just a lil while longer and i will be able to hold conversations! And a possible ANIME club on campus in the works!? Count me in!
Well other than that its day 2 so far so good, and the week is almost halfway done. super happy to go back to school and waiting to see what God has in store for me this year. =)

Thursday, July 30, 2009

TheItsyBitsySpider...


I have friends that are just adorable when they look at an eight legged creature and scream bloody murder. I love them to death and they freak out for the weirdest things. That's okay. I'll be their Superman any day against those evil Arachnids. :)

Rosie and Erick and Gaby also! Three people that jump at just the mention of spiders!! I guess I shouldn't take them to my Garage. It's just full of cobwebs and spiders. And I guess the toy ones should be hidden everytime that they come around. :)

Monday, July 27, 2009

It's Been A Long Time...

Well for the record, I am not dead, I have simply been away from my house for two whole weeks! I was kidnapped and held against my will by a 10 year old, an 8 year old, and a 1 and eight month old. That's right! Babysitting!
It was not the emotional roller coaster I honestly expected. I really was waiting for the children to just cry and cry and cry until I would snap and drive all the way to New York and fall off the Empire State Building. In the end, I was actually sad to be on my way home.
The only reason that I wanted to leave was for one, the heat. My sister lives in a desert. The Palm Desert. Where all the wind propellers are at and the heat is so unbearable, you can cook outside with no fire needed. Just a stone would be enough to get things heated. And being the "somewhat outdoorsy" type I like going outside from time to time, without the heat slapping me in the face to go back inside. To make it sound worse was that it was even hot at night. So basically it was hot all day and even all night, when there was no sun whatsoever.
The other reason was for my friends. I missed all of them! I missed Sara and her crazy escapades to go everywhere just because we could! I missed Gaby and the gang when we would have our movie nights. Or just when we would hang out. Rosie I miss all the time since she moved away. And Brittany is just down the block from me, but I even missed her!
Well, in retrospect, if my sister needed me to babysit her children again, I would love to, because other than the fact that she had me fed, she gave me shelter, and she took me swimming from time to time, I loved spending the two weeks with my little nephews and neice. We would have our tough times, our good times, and many of our in between times. And it was good experience for me when I think about having kids of my own. Just not right now. REALLY not right now. I don't even know how my sisters do it. :)

Thursday, July 09, 2009

I just wanna have fun...

Sometimes I can understand the split decision of a child wanting to seperate from their parents, and other times I can see why some will go crawling back.
I love my family, my mother with her easy laid-back ways while trying to be strict. My father who is strict but bends to a simple please with a face like a wounded puppy. They both wish to hold me down, try to make me see the reality of the world is living on a paycheck, but even that's not a reality of a world that I wish to embark on. The one I can always bear to live with is my little brother, with his more-than-weird personality that he holds. He can always find a way to make me laugh, and knows which button to push to make me radiate with hatred for him.
I guess the real reason that I'm typing this blog is not to give you an inside scoop that is my family, but rather to be clear of one thing: that I am not a child anymore. I'm 19 years of age, still live with my parents, and still have a time that I have to be home by. It's not that I have a problem with it, it's understandable, but every night I have to be home by 10 or 11 at the latest!? Cut me a break, throw me a bone, or my personal favorite: what the f----?!
And what makes it worst is that it's not like I'm doing anything wrong! I watch movies with friends, not party and get drunk! I don't even have friends that are old enough for that!
Like the 4th of July party that I was invited to. I had to make my friend leave early ruining her fun as well as mine. And all because my parents wanted me home at 10! Do they really have to be so old fashioned?! Do they really think that the party is over at 10!? It is just beginning! For us anyways.
It's really times like these that I really wish that I didn't live with my parents. It's times especially like these that I wish I would have dormed or some other thing to show that I am a responsible and independent student/woman. I am not planning to ruin my life as my mother would say if she saw this, I just want to begin it. I want to take the sharp breaths of the really cold night air, not the beginnings of it. I want to laugh loudly into the night, not be timid. And most importantly I want to enjoy my last remaining year of a teen with my other fellow friends before I realize that the time has passed by thanks to the oppressive demands that escape my parents mouths.
But until then... what can I do? I feel like a captive held out in the sea, determining and calculating when it will be a good time to jump on a life raft and head out to see where the sea would carry me.

Monday, July 06, 2009

Come 'ere!


La Sierra University is the school I have decided to enrich my mind further as my years go by. I love the school that I chose to attend, which is the honest truth. It may hold a different religion than what I do, it may be super strict, and it may be minutes away from my house, but it is small, the people are very friendly and the teachers do care, and remember your name. I made new friends as I struggled with my old ones identifying classes, and borrowing books. And carpooling for a while since when I started I didn't have a car. I made good friends and kept strong relationships with a few of my proffessors which had to be one smart move.

Now time for the scales to be unbalanced once again. My school now is offering free (yes free.) iPods to students that are coming into the school. I have to say I wish I would have waited to come if I would have known that they were planning on giving away free stuff. I'm not planning on throwing those little children fits that happen in the middle of the store because they want candy. I just want to know why it is that my school will go so far to give away free iPods to students that probably already have one, instead of using that money for something more effective. Effective among the lines of lower tuition, better pay to the proffessors, classes, something for the entire student body even. It is just so annoying to see what some schools will go through to round up students. Sometimes it things like this that make me wanna say "ummm, yeah thats my school" and while I am uttering those words put my head down in embarrasment.

Gotta say it sure shows how much my school loves their incoming students, its like the iPod is covering all the tuition bills that will come in the mail soon after you laid your fingers on it. I say that they love their incoming students because they did the same to me, a bunch a scholarships minus the iPod. And that is what they do. It's like a free sample, you taste it and as you savor it, it draws you to want to buy the big packet, because of the delicious morsel that stained your tongue.

All I have to say is that I hope my school doesn't try anything else to make me want to huff and puff about, or else I take my money elsewhere! I don't really know where though. :P

Sunday, July 05, 2009

Sparking the insanity...

Well I am sitting on my little handmade desk, typing away on google, facebook and myspace. I am a bit surprised that I haven't touched the twitter or my inbox, cuz then I would realize that something is a bit wrong. =)
But today I awoke with such energy that I was up and ready to take on the world, and by that I mean my back yard to clean the leftover 4th of July party we had (I went to another party, it was funner I'm sure. lol)
I washed my cars, bathed my dogs, updated my iPod, and went to drive for a bit while I was texting people. =) I was having such a blast and I didn't even know why! I guess it was one of those days when you just feel like doing something besides sitting and looking at a small screen.
Glad I did too, I played pool and won on the first shot! Great accomplishment on my behalf. I just didnt feel like staying inside. And now that I am, I'm back to where I always am: in front of my Lappy, typing how my days are going, once in a while, while Jeff Dunham is streaming his puppets and filling my room with his ventriloquist ways.
Can't really complain about that really, who can be annoyed by funny puppets?

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Awake One Morning...

There has to be a better way to wake up without my dogs licking my face. It's not that I don't like waking up to it, I mean I love it that my puppies love me so much that they want to show me their love, but I would love them even more if they didn't do that at five thirty in the morning.

Well to wake up at five thirty, what can a person do? My parents are still asleep, my brother snores, and my grandpa is barely waking up to make his cup of coffee. I have to be silent like a ninja to do anything. Normally, I would just listen to my iPod after I take out my pups, but today the darn thing was dead! So then I was like who can I possibly text at five thirty in the morning. I have friends that actually like to sleep until noon so I knew that was a lost cause. I just ended up staring at the ceiling. I found a cat, unicorn, and three different people's faces on my ceiling. Now everytime I look up I see people. Weird!

There should be a better way to wake up not at five thirty, and that's to not wake up. But like I said to have my dogs slobering their wet kisses on me is kind of hard to ignore. Oh well, five thirty it is. Does anyone have suggestions as to what to do if my iPod is dead? Remember, silent like a ninja. I would figure I would just blog at five in the morning, but I think I would not see the key pad, and since I look at it to type, then the words would end up looking like this: where us rhe leyyer x/.(where is the letter x? :]]) I would really appreciate the opinions. =]

Until Next Time...

P.S. If you have not heard of Drake-Best I Ever Had, where have you been!? :]]

Monday, June 15, 2009

Quiet Summer...

Well I'm basically writing this blog to just reflect on summer, and what I am expecting of it. I like doing reflections so bear with me.
Summer. The hot breeze as it blows in your face. The time of days that instead of being snugged warmly on your bed, your sheets are sticky, and the last thing you want is something warm. But it also comes with greater things. Summer vacation.
Who didn't like counting down the days for summer vacation when you were in high school? I practically had my Calendar marked, ready to purchase semi-expensive ice creams and ice cold drinks. No worries whatsoever except finding things to entertain oneself, whether water balloon fights to just video games inside the air conditioned room.
I love the summer, it gives me excuses for just sitting down and typing words, or going outside and write in my journal. Last year I did just that, and now, well I won't be traveling, which is a bummer after all. But the things that I do look forward this summer is friends, jobs, and writing. I do plan to spend as much of my waking moment with my friends, and hold our friendships strong as the time that we first made it, back in our high school years. I got offered a small job in which I do nothing but write, which is pretty much starting to become a slow addiction. Something about seeing my words fly out of my head and onto the screen brings a sort of happiness. These are words that are used by any race of the population, but they are mine, in the sense that I have combined them to twist in whatever way I see fit. (Sounds a bit posessive I know, but that's the way I often feel.)
I hope that this is not something that will die in me. I want to continue with writing, see where it takes me, as all these ideas are slowly oozing out of my brain and into my blogs. Let's just hope the summer heat actually comes out so I can put to good use my summer dresses... =)

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Slowly Growing Up...

Promotion, Graduation, it all amounts to one thing: that sense of accomplishment. I felt it when I took my first steps on the grassy plain, now my little brother, who is five years younger than me is taking his first steps toward his future. I loved watching him, walking over, handing his certificate and shaking hands with his future principal!
I can't believe he only has four years to go! yay!
Well before it gets any later, (and before my sister decides she wants to kill me) I want to show people how happy I am for my little brother Jorge, and his pictures that I took at Promotion!
Way to Go Loser!!! :)

Friday, June 05, 2009

A.R.T. (Amazing Realization of Talent!)



Well, I had an art project due on Wednesday and I was struggling on what I should draw or paint or take a picture of, because art is pretty much anything as long as you say "ART!" alongside it. So at first, I wanted to find something to do with the Mona Lisa, seeing how I always loved Da Vinci's work. In the long run, nothing was turning out as good as I hoped and made me look online for other art pieces. I looked at Michaelangelou, Raphael, and tons of other Renaissance men, because they are just boss.

After ten pages on Google and getting ready to close the internet, I stumbled across Edvard Munch and his famous art The Scream. For those of you that don't know who Edvard Munch is, I'm sure you can guess what the art looks like. Well anyways, I read up on him, seeing how what he drew were emotions and the like, The Scream was the epitomy of him having a hard and depressing time. So it got me thinking (big surprise), since I am in one of those kiddy-got-too-much-caffeine-for-just-one-person emotion (which just basically means that I was super hyper) I ended up drawing me (or a closeness of it) smiling happily in the same background of The Scream. It is entitled The Smile (very original I know), because in the picture instead of screaming I am happy and smiling, even thought the background behind me is not as beautiful. It was quite a tough time, because I was looking like crazy for colors to make it seem like it. I personally think I could be the next Edvard Munch! Not really. :)
And in case someone is wondering what the original piece looked like here it is:
Kinda similar don't ya think? Anyways the other reason as to why I left the background the same was due to the fact that even though my day is sad and depressing, it will not define my day. I myself am the only one that will decide if I have a fun night out or if I should just curl up in bed and pull the covers over my head. Well that's all the time I have for today since I have to get ready for school, and decided not to hold this up for much longer. Have a happy day and remember: don't let the day define you, define it for yourself!

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Crazy Little Thing Called Imagination...

I started the day like any other. I groggily got up, mumbled about waking up, got ready and drove off to school. As soon as I arrived I went toward my English class, plopping myself down on my regular seat and getting ready to tune out the speeches that we were presenting (Don't worry I have the feeling that many are going to do the same thing with my speech). As the first presenter arose to deliver her well thought out speech I was already acting as though I had headphones on listening to music instead of her. Then came her opening sentence:

"Once upon a time, wait that's not right. How about in a Galaxy far far away, wait no, that's no good either. I got it: In a land far far away..." and she continued from there, explaining to us that reality is different from the fantasy that are expressed through movies and stories and anything else that leaked out, maybe even through a blog.

I got me thinking: yeah, fantasy and reality are different and should be treated as such, so no argument there. Then came the harsh tone from her mouth: "Grow up, there's no such thing as a happy ending."

I pretty much screeched to a halt there.

Yes, happy endings with fairy tale stories in which damsels in distress is far from reality. I myself can testify for that. But the way that she was explaining this point of view kind of threw me off guard, telling us to grow up and stop having companies like Disney and many others stop spewing the happiness and morals that it teaches us, especially if it is in the form of fantasy. To tell us to grow up is the same as telling us to get over the fact that your pet turtle died.

What also "grinded my gears" as Peter Griffin would say was that she expected us, college students, to still be this way: forever pining for that prince charming, forever searching for the fallen beauty. It's as if she expected us to combat the fire breathing dragons to get to the fairest maiden in the land or wait for true love's first kiss. I don't know much about many of you in the world, but the closest I have gotten to dragons are the lizards that hide from me when I come across them. As for true love's kiss... yeah.

The other thing that got me a bit peeved was how she was comparing the cult classic The Little Mermaid, to something that we are looking for. A young mermaid whose father told her to stay away from humans, even though she fell in love with one. It's edgy, rebellious, and a classic fairy tale come true with the help of a talking crab. I don't know any talking crabs personally but I loved that movie when I was 5 years old, and still love it to this day. I am not looking for a talking crab anytime soon, and humans are my race so I think I'm in the clear. And it's not just the whole becoming human and living happily ever after that goes behind this movie. If one looks between the lines, you can see the relationships that are placed between a father and daughter, how friends are always there for you when one needs them, and yes of course falling in love.

Now here is the real question that I have for any of you guys that are thinking "this girl had a point." Let me first say that this person is a friend of mine so I hold nothing against her personally, just wanted my point to be put forward without any arguments in the process, because I could rant about this all day long.

Onto the question: How can you as a person, parent, sibling, family member or just a friend tell a child in the same tone and indifference to grow up because what you see in the movies will never come true? How can look into a child's eyes and say stop believing in that fairy tale junk? It would be the same as telling them to grow up and stop believing in the Tooth Fairy, Santa Claus and any other fairy tale creature.

They are kids! They don't need to hold an aspect onto a perspective of reality, when fantasy is what is forming in their minds between the ages of 3 through possibly ten years old, or maybe longer. I am not saying to tell children to keep up the erroneous fantasy of waiting for true love or something like that. I am just trying to show the emphasis of the freedom and escape of reality by indulging ourselves in a fantasy that can be as crazy as being a mermaid, to a boy fighting dragons... or zombies for that matter. I am trying to show how many people are trying to have their child grow up at such a young age, when in truth they have the rest of their lives to grow up.

Take a chapter out of Peter Pan's book. Don't hurry your children to grow up, keep them indulged in the realms of fantasy for as long as you can, because if you don't you will see them grow too quickly to even appreciate all their childhood dreams. With all the promotions that are going on in life and pressures such as sex, drugs and many other dangerous vices, it is good to escape reality from time to time. Let your imagination take you where you want to go or have it cradle you and let you be who you want to be, and do the same with your child.